Good morning.
This is the first time I have got up at 6:00 after coming to Chennai. I wonder what has propelled me to get up so early ? Is it the morning tennis or is it the need for feeling the coolness of the morning so as to sustain the blistering sun throughout the day ?
A tough day ahead. A day when I have to inititate a few work practices on the shop floor, "never easy". My course next week has got postponed, thanks to non-availability of skillfully trained faculty. What implications that will have is tough to judge ! And I dont want to add another dimension to all what I am ruminating on these days.
The cold has got better. Thankfully ! It was horrible last night when I went off to sleep. I will have to start looking at a solution to this persistent cold rather than allow the body to develop its own immunity system as I have been doing so.
Lots of visits to the shop floor by important entities next week. Would be fun coming to know so many people. Knowing people is always fun, isnt it ?
And lets explore the monetary issues today. Atleast start on it.
Phew ! I dont want to write more. I have so much to do and miles to go before I sleep again.
So all I would say is "Come on dear day. I am ready to overcome everything you throw at me".
Friday, August 18, 2006
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Arrogate
The journey begins in a small faction of my vast domain. There are many of my agents who pass on to me "response". Response which has no meaning. Response which has no substance. I an the one who creates substance. I possess a power unmatched. I possess weapons of self-destruction.
You want to go on a ride. Where would you like to go ? Somewhere where it is safe and comforting. No problemo. I will take you along. Oh but a safe and comforting stint; is it adventurous and pacy. It seldom is. Do you like to be called adventurous ? Do you like to be associated with moments of courage and moments of exploration ? Yeah, we all adore that. Or do you like to be cocooned in a soft, cozy, safe and comforting place? I dont think so. So is going to such a place a nice idea ? What do you have to say. Ah! What can you say . "Nothing"
Lets move. You like the swings and the ups-downs in life. You like challenges and you like to be called great. You like to be acquanted with all the knowledge of the world; be it entertainment, business... anything. You want to do every work in the "bestest" way it can be done. Do you ? yeah you do. Your smile tells me you do. Go ahead have a shot. i have landed you right where you will find lots of challenges and similar oppurtunities to demonstrate your mettle. But ........ Oh you chickened out. Why? ofcourse because of me again. I dont like this place. This place means a lot of efforts. No I would like to move on. And as I said I am the most powerful.
Do you have something to say, "Nothing"
Do you want to be delusional. Do you want to day-dream. Or do you want to be enveloped by thoughts of the past; disturbed by moments when you could not seize control and influence results. Do you want everything to be the way you want it to be ?
So what if you want all this. It is me who decides what will happen. I do not want you to be rationale. Well so be it. And I want you to be disturbed about solutions which do not exist, which are just a figment of your imagination. Again I am the all conquering. Do you protest ? of course you can protest "Nothing"
I am unpredictable. You want me and I will fail you. You want me and I will aid you. What would happen when; you have no right to decide. Do you ? What do you think ? See you have no right to decide or do you ? Its up to my discretion.
But you scare me sometimes. You have something which controls me. I am scared of it. It envelopes me and doesnt let me go. It clings on to me and doesnt let me breathe. What is that thing ? You better keep it away from you. Remember I am you best friend and not that stupid thing which brings in a lot of mushy effusiveness. I know finally you will come back to me. When all is lost, you will. But why do you allow it to conquer me in the first instance. Cant we fight it together. I need you help. Maybe I am not that powerful any more. I am feeling jittery. Stick with me and we will pull through. Or else trudge the path; let me be captured; lose all that you possess and come back to me. We will sit together with a bottle of beer hand in hand.
But you know what. Every time you let me be conquered, when I am released from the chains, I AM MORE POWERFUL. I guess you have made me powerful. Have you or have you not ? Of course you have. Right? You agree; :) you dont have a choice to disagree.
You want to go on a ride. Where would you like to go ? Somewhere where it is safe and comforting. No problemo. I will take you along. Oh but a safe and comforting stint; is it adventurous and pacy. It seldom is. Do you like to be called adventurous ? Do you like to be associated with moments of courage and moments of exploration ? Yeah, we all adore that. Or do you like to be cocooned in a soft, cozy, safe and comforting place? I dont think so. So is going to such a place a nice idea ? What do you have to say. Ah! What can you say . "Nothing"
Lets move. You like the swings and the ups-downs in life. You like challenges and you like to be called great. You like to be acquanted with all the knowledge of the world; be it entertainment, business... anything. You want to do every work in the "bestest" way it can be done. Do you ? yeah you do. Your smile tells me you do. Go ahead have a shot. i have landed you right where you will find lots of challenges and similar oppurtunities to demonstrate your mettle. But ........ Oh you chickened out. Why? ofcourse because of me again. I dont like this place. This place means a lot of efforts. No I would like to move on. And as I said I am the most powerful.
Do you have something to say, "Nothing"
Do you want to be delusional. Do you want to day-dream. Or do you want to be enveloped by thoughts of the past; disturbed by moments when you could not seize control and influence results. Do you want everything to be the way you want it to be ?
So what if you want all this. It is me who decides what will happen. I do not want you to be rationale. Well so be it. And I want you to be disturbed about solutions which do not exist, which are just a figment of your imagination. Again I am the all conquering. Do you protest ? of course you can protest "Nothing"
I am unpredictable. You want me and I will fail you. You want me and I will aid you. What would happen when; you have no right to decide. Do you ? What do you think ? See you have no right to decide or do you ? Its up to my discretion.
But you scare me sometimes. You have something which controls me. I am scared of it. It envelopes me and doesnt let me go. It clings on to me and doesnt let me breathe. What is that thing ? You better keep it away from you. Remember I am you best friend and not that stupid thing which brings in a lot of mushy effusiveness. I know finally you will come back to me. When all is lost, you will. But why do you allow it to conquer me in the first instance. Cant we fight it together. I need you help. Maybe I am not that powerful any more. I am feeling jittery. Stick with me and we will pull through. Or else trudge the path; let me be captured; lose all that you possess and come back to me. We will sit together with a bottle of beer hand in hand.
But you know what. Every time you let me be conquered, when I am released from the chains, I AM MORE POWERFUL. I guess you have made me powerful. Have you or have you not ? Of course you have. Right? You agree; :) you dont have a choice to disagree.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Love, Life and Laughter
Thought for the day "Love and fault finding go hand in hand. The more you love someone; the lesser faults you will find in that person".
This was displayed on the public notice board in my plant when I entered the plant today morning at 11:00 am. Beautiful quote indeed, I thought. I registered it somewhere in my thoughts and forgot about it.
Now, having come to my abode at around 6:30, sipping beer, having Lays and buzzing friends whom I can see online for a warm chat, I was reminded of what I had read in the morning. And as I ruminate about the same (linking it to my life), it is indeed contradictory to what all his transpired with me in the past.
I believe what happens is that when you get closer to a person, his/her faults/weaknesses begin to show through. You dont notice them when you are far off since all that you want is to be closer to the other soul.
However, that should not deter one from falling in love. Beacuse when you are falling in love with someone, the feeling is awesome and unexplainable. Forget the rest.
Aneways, a surprise act. Wrote a poem. Emotions can turn anyone into a poet, no doubt.
So here it goes.
" Love, life and laughter
Is what I believe
I search for that shimmering light
So that my lonely heart no longer weeps
I never learnt how to hold on to love
And stay strong to love
Now I close my eyes
And I am dreaming about thee"
This was displayed on the public notice board in my plant when I entered the plant today morning at 11:00 am. Beautiful quote indeed, I thought. I registered it somewhere in my thoughts and forgot about it.
Now, having come to my abode at around 6:30, sipping beer, having Lays and buzzing friends whom I can see online for a warm chat, I was reminded of what I had read in the morning. And as I ruminate about the same (linking it to my life), it is indeed contradictory to what all his transpired with me in the past.
I believe what happens is that when you get closer to a person, his/her faults/weaknesses begin to show through. You dont notice them when you are far off since all that you want is to be closer to the other soul.
However, that should not deter one from falling in love. Beacuse when you are falling in love with someone, the feeling is awesome and unexplainable. Forget the rest.
Aneways, a surprise act. Wrote a poem. Emotions can turn anyone into a poet, no doubt.
So here it goes.
" Love, life and laughter
Is what I believe
I search for that shimmering light
So that my lonely heart no longer weeps
I never learnt how to hold on to love
And stay strong to love
Now I close my eyes
And I am dreaming about thee"
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Metamorphosis
10th August is drawing nearer. A special day for me indeed. On 10th August, I would have completed a month of my job at ITC.
I am currently at Bombay, here for my convocation. This trip has been a sort of reflection in addition to ofcourse the abound joy it has surged within me to meet friends and juniors. Nothing much has changed at IITB I must say. But looking at myself, I believe there has settled down in me a metamorphosis phase. I do not know what to talk about besides my job. If I ponder on the last one month, I cannot express what I have done in my spare time when I have not been working. This is a testimony to the fact that my party life and my fun life have come to halt, now that I have shifted to Chennai. A thought which itches me.
The biggest shock of the day was that I could not remember I was penning down a book some 10 days back. I have completely forgotten about the so fabulous venture I had decided to set myself on.
The job has involved sogging a lot of pressure and I believe all this memory loss is an effect of the same (though I predict some would immediately say that all this is because of an old CPU :) . ). The naiveness has begun to disappear and a matured self is coming through, something which i dont like at all.
Aneways, it has been a fun filled 9th of August. One which shall be etched in my mind forever. It has conjured memories of the wonderful days that have rolled by, days spent in the company of some wonderful people. I always believe that a person's life is enriched mostly by the friends/company he possesses. And 9th of August was spent with some of the most dearest ones in life. Every moment of the day was savored. I craved for the time to standstill. But comforting words they were when it was aptly put, "Forget that you are leaving, and enjpy the time you have here".
I am currently at Bombay, here for my convocation. This trip has been a sort of reflection in addition to ofcourse the abound joy it has surged within me to meet friends and juniors. Nothing much has changed at IITB I must say. But looking at myself, I believe there has settled down in me a metamorphosis phase. I do not know what to talk about besides my job. If I ponder on the last one month, I cannot express what I have done in my spare time when I have not been working. This is a testimony to the fact that my party life and my fun life have come to halt, now that I have shifted to Chennai. A thought which itches me.
The biggest shock of the day was that I could not remember I was penning down a book some 10 days back. I have completely forgotten about the so fabulous venture I had decided to set myself on.
The job has involved sogging a lot of pressure and I believe all this memory loss is an effect of the same (though I predict some would immediately say that all this is because of an old CPU :) . ). The naiveness has begun to disappear and a matured self is coming through, something which i dont like at all.
Aneways, it has been a fun filled 9th of August. One which shall be etched in my mind forever. It has conjured memories of the wonderful days that have rolled by, days spent in the company of some wonderful people. I always believe that a person's life is enriched mostly by the friends/company he possesses. And 9th of August was spent with some of the most dearest ones in life. Every moment of the day was savored. I craved for the time to standstill. But comforting words they were when it was aptly put, "Forget that you are leaving, and enjpy the time you have here".
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